Bell Lets Talk

There's a couple hours left of "Bell Let's Talk" Day 2014..

It's amazing to see how many people are starting to recognize how important your mental health is. There are so many people that battle with mental illness every day, and that have been battling with it every day for years. There are some that lose the battle, and are no longer with us other than the memories they leave us with... and then there are those that fight and over come their inner demons.

I spent so much time hating myself and trying to make myself perfect. I tried to make myself perfect due to not thinking that I was good enough... mean while I was and I am. All of the time that I spent hating myself and listening to the voices in my head, I look back at as the lost years. There are so many things that I could have done and so many things I could have accomplished if I wasn't so focused on the voices in my head telling me that I couldn't.

I didn't talk about it. I didn't tell people about it. The fear of being judged and looked down on was worse than the amount of pressure the voices in my put on me. You couldn't see the symptoms ... for all I knew people would say that it's for attention. (sure some still did) But that's why those people aren't here anymore. That's why those people aren't in my life.

To see how many people have come to realize that Mental Illness is in fact an Illness and needs to be recognized as such is amazing. To see that there are all of these people to support those that are going through what I went through, is an incredible feeling.

There are those that will always believe it's nothing ... that it's a choice you make rather than a chemical imbalance, but the amount of people that are supportive and willing to help break the stigma will out number them.

For those that are fighting with a mental illness or in recovery fighting for their lives back. You're not alone. There are people that have been there and made it through, and there are those that are willing to listen. There are good days and there are bad days, but you're never alone.
The proof of that... There have been over 100 million mentions of Bell Lets Talk ... meaning there has been over 5 million dollars raised for Mental Health Research.

Thank you to those that tweeted with #BellLetsTalk or donated any amount of money, or even turned off their imessage and decided to text instead. Thank you for showing those that are currently battling with Mental Illness and those that have, that they are not alone.

Time

Time goes by really quickly and I think that's something that we don't realize. We don't realize that everyday there is so many things that we could be doing to get closer to our goals and who we want to be. Every day there is opportunity to change your life. People think that weeks and months are a long way away, but they aren't. 24 hours goes by pretty quickly when you think about it ... 7 days even faster... I don't even want to think about how quickly a year passes.

There are so many things that you hope to do and wish to do in your lifetime, yet you spend so much time wasting away doing things that you hate. Working a job that makes you miserable and being with people that don't bring out the best in you. 

Every once in a while, I think it's nice to stop from your routine and stop from being busy and just relax. Take a walk through the snow or take a walk in the rain and embrace your surroundings. Enjoy the blue sky or the rain drops hitting your skin. Listen to the way the snow crunches under your feet and just take a breather. Let the world slow down and let your brain take a break from the busyness of your life.
Sometimes it's nice to sit in a coffee shop alone and just watch the people around you. Make up stories about what they do and where they're from. What led them to this moment right now. Heck even start a random conversation.. you never know who you're going to meet or how they're going to effect your life.

Time is something that we take for granted. We think that there is so much time in the world and we put everything off and we keep putting things off and eventually we run out of time. Eventually we end up with this list of things that we've always wanted to and never took the time to do. We make up excuses about how busy we are and that we don't have the time. Yet our lives are the longest thing that we have, so why not make the most of them?

I think the best thing that anyone can do for themselves is to not only have a good relationship with themselves and love themselves for everything that they are... but to embrace and enjoy the things around them. Embrace the small things in life... because even if you see them everyday, you're not really seeing them until you make the world slow down and actually look. 

Life Update

Haven't posted one of these on here .. and since I haven't posted in a while I figured I may as well.
It's crazy to think about how many things I had planned by now... and how many of them changed. It's crazy to see how one thing, one event can change so many things in your life. But the craziest part is probably how that one event can seem like everything is falling apart ... but it's actually the start of a whole new thing thats better than you could imagine.
Almost two years ago things happened in my life that I thought i wouldn't get through. I thought it was the end of the world and everything changed. Everything did change, but that was the only thing i was right about. They didn't change for the worse and I wasn't stuck. It felt like I was at the time, and sometimes it still feels that way. But there are ways out... There will be hard times no matter who you are or what your goals are. It's being able to get through those times that make you who you are get you that much closer to where you want to be.
Yeah I work non-stop and some of the jobs aren't really what I want to do... but i'm 21, and there are still so many opportunities coming my way. I get feedback from people that i've known my entire life and from people that i've met within the past couple of years and it's insane to see how much they follow the things that i've been doing. Graduating college and starting my career at 21 was scary... it was so scary that I went back to school for something else for no reason at all. Until I realized that it was okay to be scared... because it is. It's okay to get scared of the future... because you don't know what it holds for you. But it's not okay to run from it or hide from it. Sometimes you need to face the fear head on and overcome it.
I overcame the fear of the future and the fear of not knowing, and it's crazy to think of how many things that i've accomplished already.
Sometimes I wonder where I would be if things had happened differently... but then I realize that i'm glad they happened the way that they did. I stopped worrying about relationships and started putting myself first, and sometimes thats exactly what you need to do. I cut out all of the people that had negative thoughts towards my goals... and it will be those people that are kicking themselves in the butt when I make it.
Life is crazy, it's insane, and it's unpredictable ... There are times when it gets hard and there are times when you're on top of the world. But in the end it's all worth it. It's not about how many commas are on your paycheck or how much is in your bank account ... what matters is waking up every morning and realizing that you love your life and you love your job. Why spend hours upon hours working at something that doesn't make you happy... when you could be spending those hours working toward a goal that will give you the feeling of accomplishment and success.
Yes I still live with my parents and I'm still single and I work several different jobs ... but they're all building up to something to bigger. And just because i'm here right now, doesn't mean i always will be. I'm happy where I am right now... but that doesn't mean I don't want more.

Side Note ..

Just a little side note .
There has been a new page link added to the top bar, it will lead you to my profile/archive on Puckrant.com.

Have a good day :)