Life Update

Haven't posted one of these on here .. and since I haven't posted in a while I figured I may as well.
It's crazy to think about how many things I had planned by now... and how many of them changed. It's crazy to see how one thing, one event can change so many things in your life. But the craziest part is probably how that one event can seem like everything is falling apart ... but it's actually the start of a whole new thing thats better than you could imagine.
Almost two years ago things happened in my life that I thought i wouldn't get through. I thought it was the end of the world and everything changed. Everything did change, but that was the only thing i was right about. They didn't change for the worse and I wasn't stuck. It felt like I was at the time, and sometimes it still feels that way. But there are ways out... There will be hard times no matter who you are or what your goals are. It's being able to get through those times that make you who you are get you that much closer to where you want to be.
Yeah I work non-stop and some of the jobs aren't really what I want to do... but i'm 21, and there are still so many opportunities coming my way. I get feedback from people that i've known my entire life and from people that i've met within the past couple of years and it's insane to see how much they follow the things that i've been doing. Graduating college and starting my career at 21 was scary... it was so scary that I went back to school for something else for no reason at all. Until I realized that it was okay to be scared... because it is. It's okay to get scared of the future... because you don't know what it holds for you. But it's not okay to run from it or hide from it. Sometimes you need to face the fear head on and overcome it.
I overcame the fear of the future and the fear of not knowing, and it's crazy to think of how many things that i've accomplished already.
Sometimes I wonder where I would be if things had happened differently... but then I realize that i'm glad they happened the way that they did. I stopped worrying about relationships and started putting myself first, and sometimes thats exactly what you need to do. I cut out all of the people that had negative thoughts towards my goals... and it will be those people that are kicking themselves in the butt when I make it.
Life is crazy, it's insane, and it's unpredictable ... There are times when it gets hard and there are times when you're on top of the world. But in the end it's all worth it. It's not about how many commas are on your paycheck or how much is in your bank account ... what matters is waking up every morning and realizing that you love your life and you love your job. Why spend hours upon hours working at something that doesn't make you happy... when you could be spending those hours working toward a goal that will give you the feeling of accomplishment and success.
Yes I still live with my parents and I'm still single and I work several different jobs ... but they're all building up to something to bigger. And just because i'm here right now, doesn't mean i always will be. I'm happy where I am right now... but that doesn't mean I don't want more.